im so sick of everything happend

im sick ..
very very sick ..
i couldn't eat well ..
sleep well ...
do anything well donely !
every two hours i sleep , i wake up!
when i feel so stress , my heart beat so fast ..
i keep on nian ze namo amitofo ... repeat repeat until i sleep .
whats happening to me ?!


early in the morning , i feel dizzy & viomit twicee .
i can feel the blood taste in my mouth , zzzz .
i cried so hardly .. thinking of you .. i so miss you !
really wish you can take care of me in this moment 
; '(
REALY WISH U'll BE BY MY SIDE RIGHT NOW TO CHEER ME!


haizhh .. 
this is what i done & get at last ..
losing you then realised how deep & hw much i love ..
LMAO! .mlm  !


think of u all the time.
whatever i do remind me of u .
where ever i go remind me of u !
chicago's , mjc's , foochow roads , the spring , boulevard , .............. etc ...
haizzzzzzzzzzzzzz .
i damn miss you!
feel like listening to your voice ..
feel like texting you ..
i hv changed alot , u never know ..


letting u go is my shun shi ..
a guy who love me so much . care me .. think first of me ..
respect me .. willing to make me happy even ownself doesnt like!
i know now u changed alot .. but i wasnt care!
u said i can find taller , handsome , richer guy ...
but i dont want to ! i just want you !
i doesnt mind ure short OKAY ! how many times u need i tell u ?
haiz .. i only love you .. i need u not them !
money wasnt everything for me !
i rather everyday eat porridge as long as i can be with someone i love !
LOVE CANOT BE BUY BY MONEY , U UNDERSTAND ?!


Uu leong .. i really hope u can give me one chance ..
once enough ! 
maybe aunty doesnt like me .. for making u so hurt ..
but i willing to change .. 
change all my bad attitudes , and change her mind .




LMAO ! write so much for what ? no one reads xD


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anyway , thanks ' J ' & my friends for being by my side ..
im so sorry for making you & my dear friends dissapointed all the times ..
im sorry ..
i couldn't forget him .. 
i still can't put him down yet ..


i criedd !!!!!!!!!!! WTF! J's MAKE ME CRY !!


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Our friendship , her .
we hv given u so much chances but u still si xing bu gai ..
u blame me take away both of them ?!
LAWLS!??
first , i said nvm . twice , wo ren !! 3rd time i really FIRE LIAO OK!
we 3 said , last year dun quarrel , but why u still want to ?
LMAO! yea .. u got alot of friends outside so u dont mind of losing us .
we doesnt want to ruin our last year mood.
but u so .. making me fk up .
im so fed up of ur attitudes!
i did not rampas thm frm u ok ?
can u pls look at ur own attitudes then look at me ?
mlm !
you ruin everything not me ! not them too !




______________ from dear bells .